Your good girl role will rob you of your life. Piss off one person per day for the next 30 days.~Cheryl RichardsonThis quote rocked my world. I’ve been rolling it around in my head for the past few days. I’m someone who’s approval addicted and I really do want to make others happy, but sometimes at my own expense. I’m playing with the idea of genuinely and truly doing what’s in my best interests at all times regardless of what that’s going to mean to others and regardless of whether … [Read more...]

So it has been a while since I’ve written. When did I start internalizing everything? When did I STOP using this blog as my outlet?I’m dating someone new. Which has just opened me up to infinite vulnerability and raw crazy.The crazy has always been there, of course, just getting naked with someone - physically, emotionally, spiritually – makes it spill out from the controlled container I usually have it in.So here it is: My biggest fear in life is that I’m going to spend the rest of my … [Read more...]

I celebrate myself, and sing myself,And what I assume you shall assume,For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you.~Walt WhitmanThe good thing about having a birthday is that is the perfect opportunity to take stock of life. It’s a good time to see where I’m at, to laugh, cry, mourn, celebrate. It’s a time to pause, and catch my breath, look forward, look back, look around. It’s a snapshot of a life in full-speed. It’s a time for gratitude, release, grief, hope, resolve and … [Read more...]

Something weird has been happening to me lately. On Sunday, I spent the entire day with my boyfriend and then came home and promptly spent another 30 minutes talking on the phone with him. Completely new experience for me. Wanting more from someone that I just saw, that is. I have always been the type of person who spends time with others, gets my fill and then is happy for time to myself. I like my space. I like to do my own thing. I have a cap on the amount of time I can spend with people … [Read more...]

BF: Hey, can we go to Shoppers?Me: SureBF: I need to buy a toothbrush and some deodorant and leave them at your house.Me: OkBF: I am tired of bringing them over all the time.Me: Mm-hm.BF: Does that freak you out?Me: No.BF: Are you sure?Me: Yes.For the first time in 10 years, there is a 2nd toothbrush in my toothbrush holder that does not belong a) to me b) to visitors or c) to a friend who was too drunk to drive home.It is green and looks very majestic...almost regal, all hanging out by my … [Read more...]

So, I haven't been posting. Usually, the reason for that is that there are things going on that I'm not ready to talk about. And it's obnoxious to come on here and say there are things going on that I'm not ready to talk about, so I end up saying nothing at all. I will say this, my goal of going on FIVE DATES in 8 weeks will be met tonight. Done and done. And in fact, I think tonight might even be Date #7 because I've kind of lost track and stopped counting and what constitutes a date anyway? Is … [Read more...]